Weight Lifted

Juries are finally over!!!! I honestly didn't feel too bad about this year's jury I think I did ok. But it is always stressful so I'm glad it is finally over.

I started off by playing Etude No.1 by Leo Brower and then played two other pieces, but that was my favorite.

Weight Lifted

Juries are finally over!!!! I honestly didn't feel too bad about this year's jury I think I did ok. But it is always stressful so I'm glad it is finally over.

I started off by playing Etude No.1 by Leo Brower and then played two other pieces, but that was my favorite.

Why Does It Hurt?

Why does it hurt so bad when i see you with him? Well thats what my new "Inspiration" focuses on. I try and try but no matter how hard I try........letting go of you is not such an easy thing to do. Does he really treat better than I could? You never even gave me a chance and now perhaps I am too late.

Dang this honestly kills me inside...everytime I think I'm done with you....BAM! I see a picture of you and him, and no I don't think he deserves an amazing girl like you, which really I don't think I deserve you either.....perhaps it is my fault....i just don't know.

Life

The 5 yr anniversary for Danny (see blog below) has somehow been harder than the others. I honestly don't know, I tried going to the grave for the first time since the funeral, but when I drove by I just kept on driving. I couldn't bring myself to go in there, either I guess because 1) Danny isn't there, but in Heaven or 2) Because I just don't want to face the reality that I know is there, that his earthly body is lying underground and I will never see him on this earth again. Granted I did not want Danny to suffer with his cancer anymore, it was killing him and I'm glad God called him home when he did. Watching Danny suffer was a hard hard thing. I honestly don't know how much longer I could watch or how much more he could take.

I still don't understand why God had to take Danny, but it somehow gave God glory and He had a reason for it. It is not up to me to question why (although I often do and it is not wrong) but I need to trust God and have faith in God and His divine will for this situation and for life in general. Danny will never leave my thoughts as long as I walk this earth, but I know i will see him again.

5 years

It's been 5 years today since Danny died. It is crazy how fast time goes by, I still remember Nov 13th 2002 like it was yesterday. Life has changed alot, but the fact that Danny isn't here hasn't. Everyday I miss Danny more and more. I wrote a song about Danny last year and it's up on myspace.com/mourningformorgan if you want to hear it. Danny was the most selfless and honest person I ever knew. I often ask God why he took Danny when he did. God has a reason that I will never understand possibly, but it is all for the enhancement of His Glory. I miss you Danny and will one day see you again.