I Don't Know

I don't exactly know what life has in store for me. She says not to get upset because it will only hurt her and i dont want that so I'll try my damnedest to keep it in. I hope she knows how much I love her and still do, the fact that we are "over" doesn't change that. Like I said tonight, it's not like I can just fall out of love with her because i know i can't and I can't lie to myself and try that will just make things worse. I guess this means more time with the band and surrounding myself with people because that will make me think of her less....not that I want to quit thinking of her that would be impossible, but the more time I'm alone the more and more the fact she is no longer mine hurts me. Who knew it would hurt this much? This was my first and my only Love and I honestly don't want to move on and find someone new. I can't because no one will ever compare to her.

Good Times Well Sort Of.

Tonight was ok, I mean yes hanging with the original "Boyz" two of my best friends in the world was awesome. Not to mention Jeff and Zach (two of my other best friends) came along for the ride and it was good hanging. But after a Wendy's stop I puked in the parking lot, i knew this would eventually happen considering i haven't been feeling exactly on my game all day. I tried to tough it out and watch Iron Man anyway but it didn't work so well. So here i sit waiting on my girlfriend to call so I can fall asleep with someone else who loves me. I have no shortage of friends and certainly no shortage on a girl who loves me, she is all i ever want or need. But to say the least being sick doesn't make a night any better.

Ps- Hascal n Stokes cranked out two count em two new songs this week! Now us Rooster boys must complete the task of taming these suckers in a full band format.

New Stuff

Well, me and the Rooster boys finished the recording of what is in my opinion our best complete song to date and we entered in the music city madness sweepstakes with CMT, so keep your fingers crossed for that. Life is going pretty well right now, music is good, and my girlfriend is the absolute best i could not ask for anything more. I love her and i love life although it is wearing me down quickly.